I didn’t know her well, although I suspected she was a kindred spirit. We shared similar titles of: worship leader, songwriter, adoptive mama, and blogger. Yet mostly, we shared the byline, “Daughter of the King.”
We broke soul bread over tea, smoothies and scones. Preferring heart talk to small talk, we dug in. Nuggets of gold emerged as we shared stories of God’s faithfulness at the table. Right there in Panera, we had church as we testified to the goodness of our Father and uplifted each other with words of hope.
She shared about victory. I shared about grace. And we learned from each other’s hangups and breakthroughs.
I thought I had her pegged, until she shared how she feared being seen. Even though her ministry and creativity were public, she preferred to blend in.
I, on the other hand, confessed my fear of being invisible. Being overlooked, forgotten, or ordinary are what I run from. I usually want to stand out, to speak up, and be seen.
It sounds bad, I know, but this is a place for authenticity, right? And my hunch is I’m not alone. And neither is my friend.
Some of us fear being visible. Others of us fear being hidden. And sometimes we are afraid of both.
If I blend in, will I become invisible?
If I stand out, will I be embarrassed?
I fear both invisibility and embarrassment.
Read the rest of this post at Kelly’s Balaries’s Purposeful Faith blog…
P.S. In case you missed it, here is my interview with Kelly about her new book, Fear Fighting.