So thankful for Hubby’s adventurous spirit as he surveys the “African Treehouse”; he pushes me to be more my true self- the two year old who braved the “Flume” ride at Busch Gardens with Poppy like it was no big deal. Inside, she remains; a bit buried, but there. He coaxes her out with his adventure thirst. And there also little sis (so glad she was there) inspires the adventure as she flies the world and lives her dream and doesn’t make excuses.
Thankful for the reminder that God is in the details- He cares about even the smallest things; and brings it all together to a make a beautiful display- pointing to His glory.
Am I allowing Him to let me shine? Or am I getting in the way of the careful process; the transformation?
Am I faithful in the small? When not many are looking, do I put in the same effort as I would on stage?
“Mayno”, the nickname resurfaces, and weren’t we just young girls a blink ago?
And there they sit, all three- reminder to see and slow. And why did it take me so long to be present and start to wake? Painting nails and putting down computer so Darling Daughter and I can be together. And saying, “Yes” instead of “Not now” or “Wait” to Sunshine-head. And not slacking off with youngest, but being intentional in time and discipline with him.
And sometimes the ugly is strangely beautiful as you look at things from a different perspective- ahh, the waiting and twisting and shaping that I can’t control but want to stop. But know I shouldn’t and I can’t, because this is what He had in mind all along.
And sometimes you think you know exactly what is going on, and then, you are pleasantly surprised.
And sometimes Africa is only four minutes away.
And you wonder how wonderful it could be to live in a hut, together, with nothing much; yet hearts so full you can’t contain them.
And you are uncomfortable with aspects of our culture, yet not sure what to do about it. Wondering what parts to embrace and what parts to throw away- or at least scale back, so you aren’t so deaf and blind and heavy.
Then you stop and round the corner another day, and Wow! Sacred moment of beauty, more beauty yet, just the surface, and you see the bend and instead of trying to see around it; you look around and see what is right there.
Learning to be.
Learning to live
In Worship of Jesus
Just starting to learn
what that might mean.