It was as if her heart was a bank and, when God did something she liked, a deposit was made into this account (or trust, if you will). If something happened that was hard to understand or painful, it was as if trust was being withdrawn. As she disclosed her checks-and-balances system with trusting God, I could relate. How often had I done a similar thing?
Trust is a big deal. It is good to ask ourselves, “Am I depositing or withdrawing trust in the eyes of my spouse with this decision or with these words?” For a long time I was inadvertently withdrawing trust from our relationship. As I got ready to go grocery shopping I told my husband when I would be back. But, here’s the thing, I was never home when I said I would be, in fact, I usually hadn’t even left the store by that time. I knew it bothered him, but I was often resentful about this.
What was the big deal anyway? Grocery shopping was free therapy, relaxing, and I was serving my family by doing it too. But then, I finally understood why my, usually laid-back, husband was frustrated. It wasn’t that I was taking too long…it was that I told him when I would return and I didn’t keep my word. He would not have cared if I stayed out longer, as long as I did not insist that I would be back earlier. Instead I should have said something like, “I don’t know when I’ll be back” or “I’m shooting for this time, but I might not make it.”
I was lying by confidently saying that I was coming back at a certain time and then never doing it. Oh sure, I did not intentionally mean to lie, but I was with my actions. I was withdrawing trust, not depositing it, and our marriage was experiencing the hidden fees and headache that come from overdrawing; discovering insufficient funds. After I finally realized how this was negatively affecting trust in our marriage, I began to reword my return-time statements.
Trust is a must. I am sure we all have our own trust issues, and probably for good reason. Trust can quickly be broken, and can take a long time to regain. However, we can absolutely trust Jesus. When bad things happen in this life, we need to remember that He hasn’t changed. He is good and His promises are true; His Word stands.
When good or bad things happen, God does not love us any more or less than He already has (when He sent His only son Jesus to live, die, and rise again- that we might be saved). His love is unconditional and steadfast and oh so trustworthy. He hurts along with us, He grants grace as we mess-up. He has given His Spirit as a deposit, a seal upon our hearts. He will come back…you can count on it, it is a trustworthy statement. Jesus will return, at just the right time.
2 Corinthians 1:21-22 “Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ. He anointed us, set his seal of ownership on us, and put his Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.”
Ephesians 1:13-14 “And you also were included in Christ when you heard the message of truth, the gospel of your salvation. When you believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession—to the praise of his glory.”