Lately I have been on edge. It’s like I’m tightly wound or something.
I feel like I could snap at the littlest thing. Unfortunately, my little ones have been hearing frustration pounce from my voice frequently, like a lion about to attack its prey. I don’t like how I’ve been talking or acting.
Why do I do what I don’t want to do?
I could come up with some compelling reasons for my short-fused speech:
- Sleep deprivation
- A busy, bustling household
- A full summer schedule
- Control issues
Let’s take look at this passage from Romans 7, verses 15-25:
15 I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
21 So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22 For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23 but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. 24 What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? 25 Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!
I’m tired of being ugly on the inside. I want my speech to be gracious and kind, not sharp and painful with a venomous sting.
I need an internal makeover. You too?
We can find the tools needed for a fresh application in God’s Word:
- Whatever is lovely think on these things (Phil. 4:8).
- A gentle answer turns away wrath (Proverbs 15:1).
- Cast all your anxiety on Him (1 Peter 5:7).
- Do not let unwholesome talk come out of your mouth (Ephesians 4:29).
- If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us (1 John 1:9).