Yesterday I was really sick- in bed most of the day, laying in the dark- with aches, pains, no appetite, fever…bleak, you get the picture. Couldn’t tell if the aches and pains were in my heart as well as my body. Thank you for your prayers, texts, and support about the baby. We are confident we will get our baby in God’s timing and way; but we appreciate your understanding and empathy as we grieve the loss of this one.
Feeling better today, at least able to get dressed, move slowly, be in the light and eat (yeah). The kids did a good job yesterday of operating without me. Darling daughter kept coming in and rubbing my arm or back and seeing how I was. She made “orange salad” for the guys for dinner- lettuce, peppers, and oranges drenched in Asian Ginger dressing. She made me mint tea too (with LOTS of honey) and put it on a tray table for me. As I held it I noticed the steam rising from it.
It danced and swayed. I watched it for awhile, mesmerized. It looked like what I envision the Holy Spirit might look like- white, pure, changing form, mysterious, captivating, transcendent, beautiful, unpredictable.
Then I blew on the steam and the formation changed- was interrupted, altered. Reminded me how I need to let God orchestrate the dance, the sway, the direction of my life. When I try to control things the circumstances do change, but then other circumstances can be negatively effected because of my “wise in my own eyes” intervention…or the sway is not as beautiful or mysterious as originally designed.
Proverbs 3:5-8
(verses 5 and 6 are so familiar, but let’s read them with fresh eyes and continue on to verses 7 and 8 which are great as well)
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the LORD and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your body, and refreshment to your bones” (NASB).
Slow down today…
take in the mysterious beauty of the everyday-
majesty among the mundane,
His grace redeeming the ordinary,
His love displayed, given for you.
Thank You God for steam that rises from cup on a hard day.
Thank You for a chance to slow down and see more clearly that You are indeed all around, always present, even and especially in pain.
Thank You for upholding, sustaining; healing.