You are in for a treat as Kristin guest posts today. I met Kristin through the God-sized Dreams site and have been blessed by her heart and words. I know you will be too!
by His Grace and so very grateful for it. Through the past 16 years she
has walked some hard roads. But despite her choices and at times lack
of faith – God loves her anyways.
Take a few minutes to read Psalm 91.
Psalm 91:4 “He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.”
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I received a small plaque as a wedding shower gift with a picture of an eagle and a Bible verse on it. The familiar Isaiah 40:31 “but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.”
I hung it on a small nail right above the light switch in our bedroom at our old house. For 13 years I saw that plaque as I entered and exited the bedroom and that verse eventually became a great comfort to me.
I am not a very patient person by nature. Alright, if we are being honest, I am not a patient person AT ALL. In fact, when I prayed for patience, God gave me plenty of opportunities to “practice” and I pretty much failed every time. I have since stopped praying for patience! 😉
So waiting on the Lord wasn’t something that came easily to me.
And because I also struggle with control, I often take life, and the lives of those around me, into my own hands. If everyone would just listen to all my wisdom, things would be so much easier wouldn’t it? Ahem…clearly God has some tough work to do with the likes of me!
My husband and I married at a young age. Pregnant with a son at 21, we were ill-equipped to be husband and wife, and even more so, parents. I had a “white picket fence” idea of of what marriage and motherhood should look like and when things started to get difficult I didn’t know what to do.
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I thought I had a “relationship” with God, and a belief that Jesus died for my sins, but the way I invested in that relationship was by crying out to God when things were tough, and begging Him to fix the problem (a.k.a my husband – because clearly I was a saint). I didn’t praise Him for the good things, I didn’t spend time in His Word…I just called His 1-800-CRISIS line when it suited me.
Have you ever been there? So self-righteous and sure that you are right, so quick to point fingers and to control? Hard-headed and stubborn? No – it’s just me?
Those were hard years. Years in which most things felt crazy and out of control. I never felt at peace because I worked so hard to keep it together in order to look good to the outside world. I didn’t understand that I could stand in the middle of the storm and find refuge by trusting God with everything.
Life brings us to those rock-bottom places though doesn’t it? I had to come to a point where I knew, without a shadow of a doubt, that I didn’t, and couldn’t, have things under control. It was then that I had the smallest bit of willingness to let go and let God take the reins.
Psalms 91:1-4 “He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say to the Lord, “My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” For he will deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with his pinions, and under his wings you will find refuge…”
The bald eagle is a massive bird, a beautiful creature. With a wingspan of up to 8 feet, this majestic bird was created to soar high above the clouds. It shouldn’t be surprising to us that throughout scripture there are references to God that are likened to that of an eagle. I love the imagery in these verses that remind us that shelter can be found IN Him, that God is our deliverer and by waiting on Him we too will soar like the eagle.
But we need willing hearts. Hearts that seek Him in all things, not just in the times we want to be bailed out of trouble. Patient hearts, waiting on His perfect plan for our lives. Grateful hearts that praise God in everything, even the storms. Lives of faith that recognize there will be attacks on us, the enemy will try and take us down, but God is sovereign and faithful, and God is still God- regardless of how we are feeling on the inside.
Throughout the Psalms, we hear David’s voice. At times he is crying out for deliverance, asking God to rescue Him…I can relate to that! But the difference between my response and David’s is that, in the same breath, David was praising God for who He was, despite his circumstances.
I believe that this kind of response comes from knowing God in an intimate way. When we read the Bible and see God’s repeated faithfulness to His people, and His great mercy and love for us…we can start to praise Him even when circumstances feel out of control.
I don’t have this down yet, I don’t know that I ever will do this “perfectly”. But God is patient with me and offers a place of refuge, and covering, even when I mess up. What a gift that is! Today, regardless of where you find yourself, I hope you can find comfort in knowing that God has you – under His wings.
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1. Do you ever feel this way, “If everyone would just listen to all my wisdom, things would be so much easier“? I know I do. I wonder if God feels this way…’If everyone would just listen to my wisdom‘…after all He really does know it all and has provided us with a whole book of all His wisdom (a.k.a the Bible).
3. Picture yourself under His wings. Really stop and think about what that would be like. What does that look like for you personally? What does that feel like? How can this concept impact your day, renew your mind and bring comfort to your heart?