It’s time to write for 5 minutes…off-the-cuff, spit it out, spill your guts, heart on sleeve, share your story.
It’s free therapy and medicine to the soul. Love this community. #fmfparty
Seriously? This is the prompt.
How did she know?
You see, for the last 2 days God has been stirring something within that I am not happy about it.
It is uncomfortable.
It was not in my plan.
When I said I want to speak more, travel more, and do more good around the globe…when I was reading Interrupted by Jen Hatmaker and wondering how it would translate it into my real life…and when I got a text from the other Jen “innocently” putting a bug in my ear about an upcoming mission trip…I didn’t know what might be in store.
I am almost positive I am supposed to go to Cambodia the summer.
I was (am) having a temper tantrum.
I have a post formulating about all the lame reasons why I don’t want to go.
There are fears, lack of desire, concerns, etc.
I am embarrassed to admit the wrestle that I have been having about this whole thing.
But I am human with a lot of junk that He wants to work through.
I can hear the voices now…
- How will you afford this?
- Couldn’t you just feed the hungry with all the $ that trip will cost?
- How could you leave kids for almost two weeks?
- Don’t you want to save up for a house, another adoption, a new website?
- How does this fit into the plan?
I don’t know.
But I do know that when He moves you, you go.
When He sends you find a way to work past the hesitations.
Because time and time again He has proven Himself faithful and much smarter than me.
He knows what will move me, what will grow me, and what will help me face some of these stuck areas.
So this summer I am almost 100% sure I am going to Cambodia.
Will you pray?
Reluctant yet ready to change,